Hate college

At the moment I'm doing Art A Levels in college and because last year I failed (to be fair the whole year nearly failed) I carried on and wanted to see if there was a way I could improve that grade. I just can't take it anymore the teachers we have there are not spending as much time as they should teaching us. Recently our normal teacher went off ill (or she got suspended) and we didn't have a teacher only substitutes who have no idea what we're doing and I had kee explaining to each one. I couldn't really ask them for their input because they don't know what I'm going on about. Furthermore, I just don't like being pressured to do something I don't want to do, because I just won't do it, instead I'll go in a strop and either cry my eyes out or start doing things I regret later on. All of this then goes in a big circle because I can't handle this pressure.

I just don't know what to do...I mean do I stick this out for half a year and see what happens, but thats the thing, I could actually like art and could do it but I just don't like my teachers pressuring me to do things. I don't see the point in some things they ask me to do. ARRGGGHHHH!!!!

I hate that college...its a s*** hole...

thanks for reading xxx

Currently happening in my life

Currently I am attending college and am hard working however I don't really like going there I just attend because I want to make my parents happy, but in september I hope to attend a different college to do another course (Hairdressing). Which I love to do and I hope I get into the course.

Anyhoo other stuff thats going on, I have realised that I have a crush on someone who I wouldn't think of liking however this person has been a really good friend to me and listened to me complain, moan and even when I talk about my ex when I was dating him. He has been a great person and I dunno what to say, things are really nice between us and I really like our friendship.

Other stuff...I am writing loads of songs and hopefully will be able to record them and place them on myspace for people to hear, I hope to play live someday only at a small venue and stuff to my close friends and family. I would love to tour and play in many different places (Wales, Japan, Hong Kong, America and loads of other places).

So thats me so far...will update on a regular bases...well when something interesting happens...